Well I tell you what.. I dont think things will get any better for me right now. This month has been the shittest one ever. Yesterday I got a message from my sister saying someone I knew had been killed in Iraq on Sunday. At first she just said his name. So all day long I thought please dont be Josh Dingler. Turns out it was him. I went to school with Josh and graduated with him. To find out that he was in Iraq and had been killed during a night mission really sucks. I never knew he was over there. I hadn't talked to him since we graduated. This really sucks. I do know this... Josh died doing what he loved. All he ever wanted to do was to be in the military. Well his dream finally came true, however, losing him just sucks. I will know this.. He died helping us out and doing what he always said he would do.
**Josh**
You will be missed so much. I am really sorry we didn't talk after school was out. We may have been close but not as close as you were with others (Stoner). You will always have a piece of my heart. You were one of the best guys I knew. I cant believe you are gone but that is something that came to a surprise to everyone. I will always think of you and the good times we all shared together while in school. "I miss you dearly and will never forget!"
R.I.P Josh Dingler - August 14, 2005 
**Jody (Baby)**
Thanks for being there for me when I needed someone to talk you. I had a lot of fun yesterday, seeing the real side of you when you get around something you love is awesome. I won't be seeing much of you in a couple of weeks but I know that it is because you are doing something you absolutely love. I love to see you with a hugh smile on your face and I know that hunting does that to you. Hopefully there are times when I make you smile that big  j/k. All I know is that you make me so happy. When I am with you I dont think of anything else. All the drama or bad stuff in my life just goes away. Anyway I am going to get off of here. Just thought I would write you!
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away, that they were meant to be there...to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.
   
   
 
don’t you wish you could go back to the best memory of your life & live it forever? ---
good girls cover their eyes during the naughty parts in a movie
but us bad girls laugh because we know we can do it better
we spend our whole lives tellinq `'
ourselves that everythinq happens
for a reason when in reality - - it's
just that we give reasons for ;; - `
everythinq that happens ___ <3
It doesn't matter that I haven't known him forever. What matters is that he's had me s m i l i n g since day one.
Someone out there is meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soulmate. The one you can tell all your dreams to. He'll smile at you when you tell him but he'll never laugh at your heart. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes and send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll call you to tell you goodnight before you get into bed, or just because he's thinking about you. He'll be bursting to talk to you each morning just to hear the sound of your voice. He'll look into your eyes and tell you you're the most beautiful girl he's ever seen. And for the first time in your life, you'll believe it.
swallow your tears stand up on your own two feet
show them you aren't giving up
&& when all is said and done the true strength
is being able to hold it together
when everyone is expecting you to
f a l l * a p a r t
THERE`S JUST SOMETHING ABOUT HIM
THAT DRIVES ME WILD AND IVE KNOWN
IT SINCE THE FIRST TIME HE LOOKED
AT ME AND SMILED - HES AMAZING <3
i told him i loved him .. and it was mutual.
he loved himself too <--- This one is kinda funny!!
keep your expectations low . your hope high * <3 your drinks full + your true friends (by your side)
he's my best friend you know ?
the kind where at the end of the
day i love to come home &&
talk to him the kind where i long
for the weekend so i can see him
he`s more than my best friend ;
he`s my world
Live for the moments
that bring butterflies to your
stomach ; and a smile to your face... | 
